It has been a roller coaster of emotion during past two weeks, but I must say that the top feeling has been a relief- relief, that finally, finally I’m able to breath. The possible unknown doest feel so overwhelming when you don’t have feeling of heavy weight your shoulder. I took the leap of fate and now I’m fully back onto my hobby and passion, doing what I love and what my heart desires. No strings attached else where, fully commitment on my career on beauty indrusty. My heart bounces from happiness, and I would not chance a day what comes to my work with hair and make up. Of course, not everyday is all sunshine and rainbows, but theres a lesson in a every setback and I’m eager to keep on learning. Learn ja sharpen my talents. 

As the emotions kept on changing, there where three feelings on top everything:

Clarity

Sometimes  after making a decision and sticking with you plan, there is, instead of straight on movement, moment of silence. Like you are in a floating phase, nothing seems to be moving  – like being in space rocket without gravity. You may be  find yourself waiting things really start making the movement. Things still keep finding their place even tho you know what you want. 

After big changes and decisions, the feeling of overwhelm can roll over like a big wave. You are even more exhausted and holding you breath, waiting is coming on next with the decisions. The relief stays on top of your mental state, holding your head above the surface. Making changes is not easy, and when you have been holding onto non working patterns too long,  after you make the chance, your energy levels might drop for a while. 

All the emotions that you have hold on inside you, will rush to the surface and you might have the feeling to hit the rock  bottom.

When having that kind of feeling, I remind myself, that actually instead of  hitting the rockbottom, I’m now on the beginning of the new chapter, and all the tiredness and feelings of exhausting, they really are just the after math of battling my way to the next step, the next pit stop, before the next stage of my life. 

The uncomfy feelings are the ones which will secure that change will come, but it is up to you, when. It is okey to outgrow from aspects of unhappy life and aim for the better solutions. Accepting this aspect will make it more easier to handle things as they are and move on. Sometimes it can be such a small thing. That a thought that is keeping you still, and when changing  your perspective, it is like whole new world has opened to you. Clicé ”when one door shuts, another opens” is more than accurate on this.

The happiness

Evolving takes many forms, and sometimes it can be feeling overwhelming. When taking the action and moving forward, you can be facing many different steps on the way.

At first, before the changes, I was anxious as hell, I felt heavy and very emotional, even more than usual. Tired and emotional, like my feelings confirming the fact that it is now or never – the change must be made. And when the break through finally did happen and the change really did happen, I was so relieved. And happy. I got my affirmation, that everything was falling on how it should be. No more second guessing, and now Im having the fresh start without pressure. Like  the heavy weight was lifted from my shoulder. Removing nonworking trait not only boosted my own mood, but also the change was noticed by the people around me – and only in a positive way.

Seeing that all the doubts really were keeping me frozen and weightnin me down, and also how much of relief I did have after change was done. I felt like I can breathe again, the feeling of lightness Was so surreal. 

And a good reminder for myself on why do we need to eliminate the nonworking situations and how much them can weight us down.

I’m so happy on my decision to letting things go on their own weight and trusting that everything will fall together.

The taste of freedom 

The things will come and go, but the main thing is to decide what you will take with you during the evolving process –  some habits, aspects or things may not serve you any longer, and that is fine to outgrow them. Everything serves their time, and on the beginning you can’t tell what is the title of this life chapter of yours – and thats the beauty of it. When liberating yourself from nonworking situations, you got to taste the new kind of freedom. The kind of freedom, that fills you up with happiness, excitement and curiosity. 

This kind of liberation boosts also your mood in a productive way,

There is a saying that knowledge brings more pain with it, but in reality, the pain is temporary as if you seek the the new perspective how to get the best from new informations and how to work with it, the journey gets easier. The more you have patience on your learning journey, the more you let yourself to learn.