Its been a while since last post, plenty of things been taking new routes and redirections. 

There have been dead ends but also new beginnings, which have been equally been stirring things up while keeping me  busy.

I have been making myself open for to new experiences, graving a new point of views. Quite funny, and a bit ironical too, that in the end while experiencing new there was still present of the need of some of the basics. Like taking the time to write, which I noticed, but I intended to keep a little sabbath from blogging, and just to realize, that this is actually something, that is part of my core.

To be creative with the words, but also, to have the black print  to get back to later on. 

Small thing may be to someone, but it is funny how that small thing can  actually make the bigger difference, especially what comes to the a-ha moments.

During the change of the year  I decided to take the action and started to make new adjustments on my life. And not the most successful ways on every aspect, that I need to admit. But those things that don’t end up to be personal wins, well then they are the lessons. 

Lessons, that I needed to have to learn more, either only about myself or also about overall life. My health took a few backspins, and my mind was only a partly with the focus in a right place. Trying to hold all he balls on the air, while limping and having my mind only halfway from where it supposed to be. 

The growth also have been demanded few tears, plenty of frustration and even one panic attack. Yes, panic attack. 

Didn’t see that one coming, but yet, life can surprise you. But also in a good way too, the thing is that you need to keep in mind that everything will sort out in the end – even on the moment that you won’t be able to tell right away, how.

Having a panic attack actually was the wake up call that I also needed, to really stop, take a deeper breath and starting to take actions on what I really needed on that very moment. For one year, I had been forcing myself just to keep on going, despite of the sorrow, tiredness and all other feeling mixed with those two mentioned.

One year, running things only having half of my soul and thoughts into whatever it was about. Sorrow really changes people, it literally can run you out from the track.

When experiencing it by self, you gain yet again a new perspective on life. Personally, from all the setbacks and losts that past year has had, I have gained a a lot too. One of the most major ones to mention,  by facing my biggest fear I feel like I have been gaining a lot  more understanding on myself, and stopping to be so hard and demanding, yet becoming more gentle and understanding. Still ambitious as hell yet humble to enough to understand that nothing comes without expenses, but with more on core to what to tolerate and what needs to go.

The places you visit, the places you hang out, the people you spend time with.. Explore, but be aware enought to eliminate what doesn’t help you evolve. We are the energy that  we absorb, and we can either choose to grow or stay the same. 

And when getting back to what feeds your soul, you can correct your course again. And then, u can see all the little miracles that start to arise in front of you.

Slowly but surely.