When there is a problem, there is also a solution for it. Even those times that it doesn’t seem like it. Sometimes it just seems to be invisible, but in the reality, fact might be the thing that you are staring the actual problem too closely, what narrows your sight and also narrows downs all the possible solutions, while popping up more and more obstacles to distract you from your actual problem. Its called domino effect, and when you find yourself on the problem creating loop, only way out is to stop and step back a bit. Taking a deep breath and a little break. 

Distancing yourself from the faced problem helps you also stop the so-called-downhill spin, but also take a look on the current situation with fresh sight. 

As it may not be easy, its totally forth it. I have been mentioning on the previous  post about documenting the happiest and life changing  moments, to be able to get back to that mindset that you then had. Remembering yourself now that you have been through plenty of obstacles that at the time felt like everything is going wrong but in the end, everything was actually sliding towards better outcome. The plans you may have don’t involve the plot twists, but life will surely serve them. Thats why is important to understand to ease up a bit while keeping the curse and sight on your goal.

I have been reminding myself during this summer, especially after my birthday, about it. I was facing many obstacles, starting from my own wellbeing, or maybe, if being honest, the lack of it. I were keeping up on the things that were already served their time while I was trying to say yes to the things my heart was going after. Of course, doing things that way were not serving  the planned outcome and I found myself in the cross road. And when I refused to see the fact that the road that I was in was coming to an end, ironically life made sure that I did for sure stop. In my case, the final stop was to got m part of the world wide pandemic and the virus and being tied to bed sick with really high fever, that lasted ten days while making sure I was indeed just laying in my bed in-between consciousness and unconsciousness. Just sleeping, while loosing all the builded strength on physical side which has been more of a shock for my mind than the actual fact that I was sick with Covid-19. 

While I’m  now recovered from the actual sympthoms, Im still not back even on my regular workout patterns, as Im at the moment lacking the strength and energy levels that I had pre-covid. So In this case, It was at first getting the frustration out as well I could, while still taking it easy. Even tho I was not able to stay up more than couple of hours at the time, even after the fever had already gone by several days ago, I managed to do what I could with my phone and/or computer. Starting from one, small task at the time. The virus did hit that hard, that It really took me back to the little things, as time to time, I was just and just even able to take care of having enough water or food into my body.

While getting back on the little daily tasks I also had the confrontation when ”starting my life again” on what my daily life has in it. While feeling like bed rotten without any energy, my mind still worked well those few hours of being up –  talking about the time after sky high fever and total the brain fog. And while maintaining the brain fog, I still scrolled more or less across social media and reflecting a bit on the  things seen. Not comparing, but taking notes on what is going on outside of my sickbed. Having a brain fog while scrolling btw was in a way blessing, as I was not having any possible anxiousness, because my brain had that little filter on, so basically everything seen was more or less like a movie kind of experience.

While being ”paused”  I now had the much needed distance on all the things and now Im more capable of seeing the whole picture, the trees but also the forest. And making more precise decisions based on the adored changes that I need to be able to take steps ahead on the wanted outcomes. Still trusting that everything goes as it should go, and everything is gonna go also as Im planning to, but with not so much forcing and more letting just flow, saying yes more to the things that really warm my heart and burst my creativity, while saying no to the things that now give me more head ache than pleasure and joy. Trusting the process and the opportunities that to following changes are bringing with them. What you focus on, multiplies, so after this reminder discuided  as a hardship, Im back at the basics. Fixing, adjusting and correcting the curse with all the things mentioned before. Keeping things rolling on, but with them own weight.

Its funny how you can just ”know” something in your heart, and have the courage to trust your intuition on that feeling and to follow it. Even tho you might not know how everything would solve, but you just know it will, and on your favor. No matter of the hardship, you are ment to face the problems based on your problem solving skills. You are capable to go trough anything that you just set your mindset at. Pause, reflect, adjust, solve.

Make the waves, but as so that you also are able to surf on them.